Running on Empty

Well it has been a rough couple of months for me. The whole moving up here thing and losing the sunshine of my life. Adjusting to a completely new life.

I think its really funny how when I was living in Los Angeles, I was constantly complaining about the lack of friends I have and the lack of support some of them gave me. Well now that I am up here, I realized what I had down there. I really truly had a wonderful small circle of friends that I miss so much now. I also had a really awesome family. Yeah they may have been judgmental and opinionated. Nevertheless, they were always there for me through thick and thin.

Up here, I really do not have any friends at all. I met a few people at the ranch but they have all been friends for years and I am not sure they will just let a new comer in the group right away. I have Rob’s parents. And I know they love me. However, they both have jobs and their own lives and it is not quite the same.

I am just supper bummed these days. I feel like I just ran out of has or something. I have moments where I’m happy and feeling ok. But I don’t have any whole good days anymore. Either I am missing Fenamore or I’m missing my friends and family back in LA. Hell I am even missing my Kennel Job! If you go back and read my old post from 09 you would understand how much I Disliked liked that job. But I realize now that I actually liked the job, Working with dogs ect. I just did not like my boss.

Ok enough babbling. Petco called back. And they want to start my training soon. I was kind of hoping that the other pet store would call back before Petco. It is all a huge mess. I guess since I already put in the hours for the in store training, I should just go ahead and do the training. Plus ill have certification in dog training that I can take anywhere. It’s a cool think to have, and a neat profession to get into, and I do love dogs to death. But I feel that my true passion is in horses…

In all of this craziness, at least I still have my animals for a laugh. Sydney is doing great. She is just the coolest little dog I have ever met. So smart and so silly. In addition, my cats are still as crazy and annoying as ever. I Love my little zoo. Right now my animals are what keeps me going.

Hopefully something will change soon….